I had a conversation with my boyfriend, and it didn't go well. I told him that what he said on the trip hurt me and my brother, and he said it wasn't as serious as I thought. He also said that I seemed to be extending the issue unnecessarily, which really opened my eyes. Considering we didn't talk about it for more than 30 minutes last night, and only 5 minutes when we got home, I can't imagine extending it. But okay, I told him he made me feel small, he said he was just shocked to be invited to such a thing, and he felt like a part of the family.
I asked why he said he didn't want to be there and why he asked my brothers such questions if he was happy and part of the family, and he just said he made a mistake and said stupid things. He also said that he is not worried about it, and I hope I forget it soon. I will forget, but without him by my side. A lot of people told me it was a bad idea to go on reddit, because all people would tell me was that I should leave him. And I should have just communicated with him. But I feel that if I hadn't heard the opinion of many people that I wasn't crazy or making a mistake in the situation, I might not have thought of ending it all.
I thank everyone who took the time to post, and you can call me stupid for not stopping here when I first knew I wasn't happy. Now it's time for me to start healing and move on because 500 strangers on the internet told me I deserve better, so I'm going to listen now.
Thank you very much for your help, I will try to reply to the comments in this update. I didn't reply to many of the comments in my previous posts because I wanted to collect my thoughts. Thank you again, lots of love, have a good day ❤️
Isang payo sa lahat diyan: Ang isang tao na basta na lang binabalewala ang iyong nararamdaman at hindi nagmamalasakit kapag nagdadala ka ng isang mahalagang bagay sa kanya (kahit hindi niya ito iniisip na malaking bagay) ay hindi magandang partner. Hindi ko sinasabi na kailangan mong makipag-break agad, pero dapat mong malaman na sila ay bad partner na may kakaunting pag-aalala sa iyo.
Masaya akong nag-decide kang gawin ito. Nag-date kami ng ex ko mula nung 16 hanggang 22 at ang biggest regret ko ay ang pag-aaksaya ng maraming oras sa kanya at pagsubok na i-save ang relasyon namin nung bata pa kami. Maraming senyales, marami sa mga ito ay katulad ng ipinakita ng iyong ex. Pero nanatili ako at hindi ito nag-work out – shocker. Maaaring na-save ko ang sarili ko mula sa taon ng stress at sakit kung ginawa ko ang ginawa mo.
Bagamat ang biggest regret ko ay kung gaano ako katagal naghintay, ang biggest achievement ko at ang pinakamagandang ginawa ko para sa sarili ko ay ang umalis. Naging tao ako na hindi ako magiging ako kung nag-stay ako, at sana makita mo rin na totoo ito para sa iyo. Ang bata mo pa. Hanapin mo ang sarili mo, kung ano ang gusto mo, kung ano ang hindi mo gusto, at (tulad ng sinabi mo) huwag mag-settle.
edit: Gusto kong idagdag na hindi ito naging madali. Nalungkot ako. Namiss ko siya. Tuwing pupunta ako sa date o makikipag-usap sa iba at hindi ito nag-work out, namimiss ko ang familiarity ng kanya. Pero nang makalampas sa lahat ng iyon, sobrang worth it.